one day....

i will be in heaven and i will be able to hold the babies i never had the chance to meet on earth.  i wonder about you two and wonder what you would have been like.   "clumpy"- i do know that if you had lived, i would not have helen; but know that i still loved you and wonder if you were a boy or a girl (i never got a clear feeling).  dr. willimson knows, but i do not- i will wait until someday to know.  as for your "brother"(i KNEW you were a boy- i am sorry.  sorrier than you will ever know, that you are not in my life.